My Three Biggest Fears – Day #8
My first reaction is to gravitate toward my fear of spiders. I wanted to dig deeper. I'm getting into the things that truly consume me when I'm faced with these fears.
- I am afraid to fail. Many times, I hesitate to start something for fear of not doing the absolute best. It can actually stop me from starting a project or something new because I just don’t want to screw it up.
- I’m afraid of enclosed spaces. I remember the very first time I knew I was claustrophobic. It was at a friend’s lake house. The couch was pushed up against the wall and we were hiding behind the space between the couch and the wall. My friend pulled one side out more than the other but blocked my exit. I started panicking and sweating and then got this super-human strength and pushed her and the couch completely out of the way.
- I have a fear of someone popping up out of nowhere. Whether it’s behind me, in my back seat, when I look up into a mirror – anything. Oh, and anyone chasing me up the stairs.
Facing these fears will take some time. However, writing them down I realized they take up such a small part of my life. If I can keep that same mindset when I'm afraid, it may help me.