Love Yourself Challenge #2: Buy A Journal

"If I get it it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me threatening the life it belongs to."  Those Anna Nalick lyrics have stuck with me for years and she's so right! Sometimes you just need to word vomit what's going inside of you somewhere safe like a journal.

That was our challenge for Day #2 of Better Me in 30 challenge, buy a journal and commit to using it.  I bought a gorgeous journal at the airport on my way home from vacation about three years ago.  I thought I was going to turn the turmoil that was my relationship status at the time into the next great American memoir.  Well, writing that great story lasted all of about five days.  I thought about using all those unwritten pages for this challenge, but re-reading the five days of what I had written made me realize that I needed a fresh start.  I was so wrapped up in the guys in my life that I'd totally lost myself.

So I picked up this new journal at Hastings this weekend.  While I think it's going to be a challenge for me to find the time to write in it everyday, I'm going to try my best to make it happen because it is a safe, non-judgmental place for me to spew what I'm feeling inside.  In the day and age of social media, it's so easy for people to post their inner most thoughts on Facebook or Instagram.  It might feel good to get it out in the open, but some things like self doubt and unresolved relationship issues aren't meant for public consumption.  Trust me, I've learned the hard way!  Plus anytime I post song lyrics that I like just for the beauty of the way they're written, people read way too far into them.  I can write them down in my safe place without inviting the public into my life.

Here's to day one of a whole new story!